SOME ME INFO//6:39

A LITTLE ABOUT ME BECAUSE WHY THE HECK NOT. IM TRYING TO BE ON HERE AND SHARE ALL MY THOUGHTS BUT I WILL TRY AND PROVIDE A LITTLE INSIGHT TO WHO I AM.


I am 19 years young, and apparently I think I have experienced enough in life to actually have thoughts and stories to share. I dont think I know everything, I just think I know enough to help the next person out, or maybe just provide some clarity, give advice. Why not, you know. For me I love to write because its an outlet and i am able to find clarity in situations im going through if i write about it first. I am pretty much a normal mind, I love to read just about as much as I love finding new music. While we are on the subject, I consider listening to and finding new music a hobby. Alot of people disagree, but i dont know, i guess it has to be more than music to you, more than noise. I love to travel, and see new things, see new places, be a tourist. I hate change, just like the next person. I dont really have any fears, except for one, that i might one day not be able to learn anything; and that my mind will just start disintegrating. Not your typical fear but its really the only one i got.


I'll add to this as I come up with things to add.. haha.

FRIDA KAHLO BIOPIC THOUGHTS//6:11

RECENTLY, I WATCHED A FRIDA KAHLO BIOPIC ON NETFLIX BECAUSE IT CAME UP IN MY RECOMMENDED AND BECAUSE I LIKE WATCHING MOVIES THAT ACTUALLY ARE FACTUAL AND ACTUALLY HAVE WEIGHT. PLUS THERES NO HARM IN LEARNING SOMETHING NEW. PRIOR TO WATCHING THE MOVIE, I KNEW WHO SHE WAS, AND I HAD SEEN HER WORK, KNEW PEOPLE HAD SOME CRAZY RESPECT FOR HER, BUT I DIDNT KNOW HER STORY AND I DIDNT KNOW WHY SHE IS SO RESPECTED EVEN AFTER HER PASSING.

FIRST OFF, THIS MOVIE IS FANTASTIC, DRAMATIC AND WELL DONE. I RECOMMEND THIS MOVIE TO ANYONE THAT WANTS TO BE INTERESTED FOR TWO AND A HALF HOURS. I LIKED IT SO MUCH IT SURPRISED ME. ITS ALMOST LIKE THEY PORTRAYED HER FOR WHO SHE WAS ON THE INSIDE AS WELL AS THE OUTSIDE. SHE WAS A WILD PERSON THAT ABSOLUTELY  HAD NO CARES FOR WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THOUGHT OF HER, BUT AT THE SAME TIME I FEEL LIKE SHE CRAVED PEOPLES ATTENTION AND RECOGNITION. SHE DIDNT NEED VALIDATION FROM ANYONE YET IT WAS SOMETHING SHE CRAVED. SHE LIVED WITH SUCH PASSION, AND DEVOTION TO HER HUSBAND DESPITE THE FACT THAT HE WAS A WOMANIZER EVEN INTO MARRIAGE. SHE GAVE HER HEART TO HER PAINTINGS AND ALL THE THOUGHT THAT SHE PUT INTO THEM. YOU CAN NOT LOOK AT ONE OF HER PAINTINGS AND DESCRIBE IT AS SIMPLE. THEY ARE ALL SO COMPLEX, AND TELL SUCH A STORY THAT WE WILL NEVER KNOW THE HALF OF IT.  SHE LIVES THROUGH HER PAINTINGS AND SHE WAS SO AHEAD OF HER TIME, I THINK THAT PLAYS INTO WHY SHE IS SO RESPECTED. SHE WAS SO OUT THERE AND I THINK PEOPLE ALWAYS RESPECT SOMEONE THAT IS BRAVER THAN THEM. AND SHE WAS BRAVE TO FEEL SO DEEPLY AND THEN PAINT THEM ONTO A CANVAS AND THEN DISPLAY THEM FOR THE WORLD TO SEE.

VIRGINIA WOOLF//5:53

 " I WANT TO WRITE A NOVEL ABOUT SILENCE," HE SAID; "THE THINGS PEOPLE DON'T SAY."  - VIRGINIA WOOLF. 

                  The things people don't say probably out way the things that actually come out of their mouths'.  That would be one incredibly long book especially since it would completely differ between all the people. On one hand, you have all the things you didnt say that you shouldve and on the other hand, you have all the things you thought that you didnt say because they are completely inappropriate, wrong, twisted, or you are to scared. Or your inner badass was mouthing off in your head, but you remained silent because you know you dont have the guts to actually say anything. That is me most of the time, because i know i got lots of things that cross my mind, that i wouldnt actually say because I dont want to get knocked out. We are all braver on the inside. 

There's things i didnt say that are not evil at all, but like i said, we are all braver on the inside. Like that guy you liked but you didnt say anything, because no thats embarrassing. Or that one girl you saw walking by and she was looking good but you didnt say anything because often times beauty comes with intimidation. These are just things that would be in my book of unspoken thoughts.  Im sure someone can relate.

ATTICUS/5:31

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START WITH THIS FIRST POST. I GUESS I SHALL FIND A QUOTE THAT HAS RECENTLY SPOKE TO ME, AND FOR OLD TIMES SAKE, I WILL PROVIDE MY THOUGHTS.

TWO SECONDS WHILE I GO CHECK ON PINTEREST...

"LET ME DIE FIRST OR I WILL DIE TWICE." - ATTICUS. 

When I first read this online, I didn't know what the heck it meant. It was a quote that I had to read a couple times and then come back to it and read it again to really understand. I think he is talking about when you love someone so so much, you want them to die before you do because you know you could not bear to live without them, not even for a day. It is almost very selfish to request such a thing because what about the one you can not live without, what if they cant live without you, but who cares, let ME die first, you can figure out what you're going to do with yourself after. Unless you can have some kind of The Notebook styled ending and ya'll die together, holding hands, that way it is a win/win situation. Both only have to die once.

update//5:08

SO. THE LAST TIME I POSTED ANYTHING WAS WHEN I WAS A FRESHMAN IN HIGH SCHOOL, 2013. TO ME, THAT IS A LONG TIME  AGO, SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED AND READING PREVIOUS POSTS SOME OF MY THOUGHTS HAVE CHANGED ON SOME OF THE THINGS I HAVE WRITTEN. THE REASON I STARTED THIS BLOG TO BEGIN WITH WAS BECAUSE MY SPEECH  TEACHER POSTED A QUOTE EVERY CLASS PERIOD AND WE PRETTY MUCH HAD TO PROVIDE COMMENTARY TO GET A WARM UP GRADE.
AT THAT TIME I DID NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT A BLOG WAS OR HOW IT WORKED.

FAST FORWARD TO 2016, I HAVE WANTED TO FIND THIS BLOG AND START IT BACK UP FOR VARIOUS REASONS THAT I WILL NOT BORE YOU WITH. I HAVE NOT COME UP WITH A SET TOPIC FOR THIS BLOG OR ANYTHING, I JUST KNOW THIS IS SOMETHING I WANT TO DO, AND HOPEFULLY I CAN REMAIN COMMITTED TO IT.

I WILL PROBABLY POST REVIEWS TO MUSIC, MOVIES, QUOTES AND A WHOLE BUNCH OF OTHER RANDOM PIECES OF CRAP.
//MOST OF ALL, I AM SOMEONE WHO FINDS PEACE IN WORDS AND SO MORE THAN ANYTHING THIS WILL BE AN OUTLET..

IF ANYONE ENJOYS, I AM GLAD. WE HAVE A POWER WITH WORDS SO WHY NOT WAGE WAR//MONTANA RAY CHAVEZ ..